it's time for an update...says the little man in the yellow suit, aka my baby brother. actually, he's sleeping so i'm going to update now otherwise he's gonna play with the computer...so anyways, i been kinda worrying for the past two days, until I had this dream last nite which totally calmed me down. It was about a man, who was this social worker. He was there helping us with our problems and we were in this military type camp situation (don't ask). We had to climb up these hills and food was scarce so we had to find it on our own. My team with Erika, Tanya,and me...and for some reason Tanya would eat all the food. I mean we would find the food together and I would try to get some but she wouldn't let us eat it...no clue why. Turns out she was the smarter one, so she used her smarts to try to evade us into not eating, or not fighting her if we saw her eat all the food. And she's so nice we thought she'd save food for us. So onwards...I finally got some of these raisin things to eat, except they weren't raisins they were these huge ass raisin things, but they were tasting good so I was eating them...except I got only a few. So afterwards, we had to go to bed. We slept in these little cottage like thingys, and the guy who was a social worker had to sleep with me since he said I was the weakest one, or the most vulnerable. So I slept next to him, and he kept asking questions all night, and writing down things and asking me questions about my life...When I told him a couple of things it's like he automatically felt pain for me and then ended up saying sorry to me for all those things to have happened...it's like he was in my head and he could totally understand me and where I was coming from. We had this weird connection, with him supposedly being my teacher, and knowing all I was going through. He was like a few years older than me, I think he was 26. But everywhere I went he kept watching me to make sure I wasn't harmed in what I was doing.It was the weirdest thing ever. I have guidance from him, which is something I thought I lacked in life, I also had sincere emotion and affection from him. And this was what I needed...genuine affection where he didn't want/need anything in return. I felt so safe, as if I had someone watching over me. But for some reason it seemed like he was from another world, bc he understood too well. So he tells me in the end I don't have to worry...thus making me feel ten times better.
