Well depression has sunk in...I dunno how to deal with this. It seems like I'm holding onto every single ounce of dignity and sanity I have left...and I hate when people try to "understand" bc we as human beings have not begun to understand every shroud of differences to understand our similarities. It's extremely annoying when ppl say "I understand" bc in actuality, you know they don't and are just trying to make you feel better. I understand that they are trying to help in whatever way they can, but they never understand when they aren't. I think it's annoying when people try to get you "over" the problem, and make u think of other things, when the long term affects of the problem can severely damage you and stick around until you can't really bother to "forget" about it and laugh about other things any more. Making someone smile doesn't get rid of their problems, it makes them forget about them for a millisecond, and possibly prolongs the amount of time they have to deal with it bc it worsens over time. That is what I think depression has been for me. I laugh, I cry, I laugh. Sometimes I just want to be able to cry without thinking twice. And that to me has become increasingly difficult bc over time, I have become to believe that it is wrong to cry and not laugh. Blah. Thanks for the laugh and the good times. Good day.
