I have an oral presentation due on toxic shock syndrome, and a two page single spaced paper on it also all by tomorrow...I also have a Psychology test and I can't find my brain and I have major cramps. I went to class today, after a horrible night of bleeding yesterday and I woke up this morning feeling slightly refreshed but not entirely but I was so gracious to have found my mind again....but that damn brain, I dunno where it is. So I got ready at about 10 and I was ready to bolt out of the door and make it to Organic with like maybe ten minutes into the class but err...the train stops at the second stop to my house. I'm stuck there for 15 minutes and low and behold my class is starting...and I was not upset so I had fun watching all the people sitting around me tap their watches and pacing their heads to see when the train would move. Lovely, business people who dont like what it's like to take a breathe...I never wanna be one of them. And it's cool, because my brain just randomly leaves me once in a while and I sit there thinking and binding to my own spell...I'm in my own zone...I like it here...there's nothing to do here but think and ponder and relax while the world rushes you away, and yr sitting in it's mess wondering how you ever got here. I like this... it's like my body's mechanism against fighting the stress...I tried so much and stressed so much I can't even do a single thing to worry any more...it's like everything will fall into place and I don't have to do anything. I just have to keep doing what I'm doing and everything will fall into place, with motivation comes focus and with focus comes finished work and with finished work comes more finished work after effort is handled and it's all going to seek merit in the end, and merit will be there bc effort was there...well that is what is going on in my head except formulated without words so I had to put it into some form of written context for you...but it's basically like my brain is telling me there is nothing to worry about bc I am trying .... even though it's gone now. Brain, go on to your little place but please come back before it is time to do these duties? Okay? I will watch Passions now.
